This post may seem at odds with my last one, talking about my CoH\/V plans, but I’m a complicated guy.<\/p>\n
\nSo…<\/p>\n
That’s a partial list of tell-tales to watch for in your loved ones, in order to spot substance abuse. It looks a lot (too much) like what I’ve allowed from my CoH involvement in the last year.
\nThere’s a longer list, and it’s accurate too, but I don’t feel like sharing some of the other items on the list.
\nSo what’s that mean?<\/p>\n
What’s that mean?<\/b>
\nI’m not quitting. At this point, I don’t believe that’s necessary; I know people (Kate and ***Dave, for different reasons) who do the things I want to do and be involved in and, simply, *be* in my life, and they play. I don’t need to quit — I believe that’s the same kind of extremism that made the game too important in the first place.
\n* I need the game to be a game; an entertaining pastime: no more, and no less.
\n* I need my friends to be friends, BEYOND (and not intrinsically tied to) the game (so that my need for their continued friendship and presence in my life doesn’t bleed over into a need to “LOG IN”).
\nWhat’s that<\/u> mean?<\/b>
\nWell, I’m going to bed a lot earlier — two to three hours or so earlier on average, in fact, and most days I’ve been logging in later — sometimes (like last night) not at all. Net, that works out to 3 to 4 hours less play-time a night, and the sad, scary<\/b> thing is, that means I’m “cutting back” to a mere 4 to 5 hours a night.
\nI’m not racing anyone, even myself, to some mythical end-point anymore. I’m not dying for the next new power.
\nWhat I have is stories I want to tell, friends I want to ‘see’, and some days, the simple desire to blow shit up.
\nI want to log in and have a good time, and have it not impact my family (my wife, my daughter, and my life). Those two things can happen together, and I hope they do, but if that’s not possible I’ll take my life and dump the game, thanks. That’s not negotiable, in my mind.
\nI’m going to keep tweaking my play time until the above goals happen.
\nWhat you can do<\/u>
\nDon’t think I hate you or I’m losing interest if I’m not on as much.
\nWhat you can’t do<\/u>
\nAsk me if I need to log off or get going; if I’m logged in, it’s because I want to be, and more importantly because I think I *can* be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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